Grief is a fickle beast not to be trifled with or easily dissuaded. Mind you, it does not like being ignored. Oh yes, Grief comes in many shapes and sizes and is never quite what you expect it to be. It enjoys playing games, or maybe it is just feeling bored. On second thought, maybe Greif is just lonely. They do say misery loves company.
From my experience, the more I tried to ignore it and pretend it wasn’t there, the bigger impression it tried to make. Maybe it thought it needed a do-over, as there is a lot of social pressure to make a good first impression. Then again, maybe Grief felt underappreciated or just wanted a friend to help bare the burden burning within.
Either way, I can empathize, we all need a friend to make us smile and help us bear the weight of the world. So this morning I decided to open my heart and let Grief in. I felt the weight of Greif’s pain as my very own. Grief seemed to thank me as we watched the rain clouds subside and felt the promise of sunshine on the horizon.
I learned not to fight Grief, to accept it as a guest during this season. I have come to realize there is no need to ignore or be angry with Grief. Grief is not the enemy. It is just a shadow of the season I’m currently in. I have come to accept Grief is always around the corner in this season, longing for a friend in its time of need. Sometimes we have good days, and sometimes we have bad days. There are days when everything feels like a raging storm, threatening to sweep us away.
Though overall, the overcast days are getting farther apart, and the sun makes her delightful appearance to remind us it is okay to shine our light. After all, the moon still shines in the darkest shadows of the night, and every day the sun rises, no matter what shadows the day may bring. My advice to you is, no matter what season you are in, and what shadows are overcasting your days, it is still okay to shine your beautiful light out into the world.